My entire life I was a wild child. I wanted to do so much in so little time. I'm always changing my mind, I'm completely impulsive. I've always liked change, never having the same appearance. Piercings and tattoos are a serious hobby of mine, I've been poked with a medal needle so many times, I should be a pin cushion.



 I was 18 when my doctor told me I couldn't have children. She told me I shouldn't even try, that even if I did get pregnant I'd never come to term. I was miserable thinking I'd never be a mother. Although after a while I didn't even think about it anymore.

I got pregnant when I was 19. I still remember how it happened,  my boyfriend and I were putting up a bed. A stupid ugly futon bed made of the thinnest metal I've ever seen. That morning I woke up from a dream and had a weird feeling, I hadn't missed any periods, I wasn't throwing up. I woke up out of deep sleep work up my boyfriend and told him to get a test.

We went to Walmart got that shitty, shitty bed and a test.
I took 2, that positive sign came up so fast I had to keep taking tests until I believed it.

I cried for a long time after that.
It was like that test was something I never thought I'd see.